I’m drowning
will somebody save me
I never learnt how to swim
how to navigate
the sea of my emotions
A storm is brewing
please someone
anyone
Could you pull me out
of my God forsaken
life
hold me
keep me
I need you
save me
I’m dying
In the darkness
of my sea
I want to swim
I just don’t know how

There are times when I feel weak and like I am drowning in my own emotions. Emotions that I have harbored and not dealt with properly. They drive me to make irrational decisions. I lash out at the wrong people, at the very people I love and who are trying to help me.

We are part of a generation where we are more self aware but still afraid of asking for help.

I have been at the bottom of many bottles, trying to find answers, maybe trying to suppress the answers to the scary questions and feelings of self hate and inadequacy. Looking at other people’s lives wondering how they are so much further ahead they are in their dreams and lives and what I have been doing with mine. It has driven me crazy, into states of depression because I couldn’t understand how accept my achievements and celebrate the success of others.

I have lost some friends because they refused to talk and to seek out help and bottled everything deep within themselves. Poetry is my escape, these are my raw feelings. through my writing. I hope to heal and through my stories, I hope to help people along their journeys.

I am writer, my poetry is for everyone, interpret and find your own meaning. I am here to talk, answer any questions you may have about my work. It’s okay to ask for help, when you feel overwhelmed, find yourself a good strong friend group if you can’t turn to your friends then seek out medical help. There is no shame in that, don’t let your demons win, heal and learn how to swim in your dark sea.

Kwanele Sifunda

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